It's been going for how many years now. And these recent attacks. I don't know what to do. I keep my eyes open. I look up news, I listen, sometimes I retweet things to my mutuals who all probably already know what's going on.
Going down to the streets? Calling our representative? Indonesia is already fully committed to Palestine. We've never even acknowledged Israel as a legal state. Our government is already pro-Palestine and if anyone is even a tiny bit pro-Israel, they will get ousted and booted harder than those who misappropriate government fund (which is another separate issue). But what is any of that worth when the richest countries in the world are endorsing and supplying the genocide?
Donations? I keep hearing how aid gets stopped in the border or couldn't get there in time. In the meanwhile, more and more places get bombed and razed until nothing can ever grow there anymore.
And I gotta. I gotta also to stay sane, right. If neither drowning nor staying float is going to change a thing, I'd damn well at least stay afloat. So I. You know. I talk about other things. Haha, look my silly games and projects. Look at this funny joke and cute art and whatnot. And there's always something in the back of my mind, saying, what right do I have to be at peace, when there are so many people out there without it.
Would they want us to be at peace? Would the idea that someone out there have peace, that peace is possible, give them hope? Or are they cursing us for the peace we have, that we don't deserve?
I learn a long a time ago that if there's something that you can't change, you shouldn't worry about it. You should use your energy for the things you can change. God, but I feel guilty not worrying, even when there's nothing I can do. Is there nothing I can do?
